i hate...everyone?

dear blog,

yesterday i took nickie grocery shopping after playing with these little monsters:

and we were kind of in a hurry because i had to go pick up my mom from work and we had to wait for a suuuper long time in line and as we were leaving the parking lot cars kept getting in my way and being dumb and i was a little bit frustrated and i said, "i hate everyone in this parking lot." and nickie started laughing! she has observed (and sometimes thinks it is humorous) that when i'm angry i get angry at everyone. sometimes it is more of an "i hate everyone in this parking lot" than "that specific person is an idiot."

i have been thinking about that ever since she said that. what does that say about me?

part of me thinks this says that i say things like that because they are ridiculously outrageous and comedy usually alleviates frustration, or that i don't want to hurt anyone so i just direct my feelings of frustration globally so that no one feels specifically targeted or offended. but another part of me thinks that i just can't control my anger so it just grows and grows until i really am angry at everyone.

i guess this is not super important, and actually a little bit stupid, but it has just been on my mind.

love,
rochelle